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sounds of the summer
"I don't need the sunshine
Don't need the good times,
Don't need anything anyone's giving,
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking." - Don't Need the Sunshine, Catatonia
donya quixote
- Proud to be Pinay.
- Born once upon a time in the late January 1988.
- Hails from the highlands; Baguio City.
- She dorms.
- Getting
hazedtrained for life at the School of Economics at the University of the Philippines, Diliman. - Member of the UP Campus Crusade for Christ and UP Economics Society.
- Just a little bit crazy.
- Doesn't want to kiss frogs; faithful to her Dulcine[o]. [NBSB PRIDE!]
- Extremely socially inept - uncomfortable with the idea of meeting new people. Would rather curl up with a nice book than go out clubbing.
- Loyal to the friends she already has. Cause they're great. [Most of the time. Hehe.] ;)
- Usually highly opinionated when it comes to music/film/other media, but her lack of social awareness is disgusting.
- A fool for Jesus Christ.
- Here's her multiply, friendster, and email. [Has myspace, but it's as good as dead. Still contemplating on whether or not she should resurrect it.]
reader log
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Symphony in the Key of C-minor
Tikim ng Kalayaan
The Aftertaste v1.0
June 2006
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Friday, May 25, 2007
I call this post: Yeouch. [BGmusic: Listening for the Weather by Bic Runga]I injured my hand a couple of weeks ago [forgot how, I just remember the pain], and I thought it had healed, but awhile ago when I was moving my stuff out the dorm, hauling boxes around my room by my lonesome, the injury was awakened and now it hurts whenever I bend my hand like thi- OW. See?
Today has been tiring. It's a good thing that there weren't a lot of people around UP awhile ago because if I had run into anyone I knew at my state awhile ago, I would have died. Since I looked like a zombie already awhile, double dead na yun. Poor me.
See, I only had three hours of sleep last night, and the whole morning I was packing and revising my short story for CW110 [finished it, and I'm not pleased with it because I rushed it]. Oh, and I didn't have breakfast.
Pero bumabawi na ako. I've been eating since I got here in ISOT [our new place, which we haven't really moved into yet]. It's nice to have a fridge to raid. You miss these kinds of things when you're dorming. *Sigh.* Haven't slept yet, though. I don't want to weird out my body clock just yet.
Allow me be a little random; I'm too sabog to focus on anything. I've been doing nothing for the past - what - five hours, just watching videos on Youtube... and look what I stumbled across.
Remember the Honeyz? Gosh, I used to love them. Anyway, the song's really great, pero nakakatawa lang kasi sobrang sablay talaga yung video. I gotta admit though, that girl in the blue tube top [name's Mariama I think, I'm not sure] is really, REALLY hot. I've got a girly cruuush. [Ew. Haha.]
Anyway, that's it. I apologize for the walang kwentang post and for not bloghopping. I will bloghop maybe this weekend. [I'll be in Baguio. Yihee.] Toodles.
Labels: bangagation, boredom, day2day, random
Monday, May 21, 2007
I call this post: Revenge of the Attention Seekers [BGmusic: Perfect Day by Lou Reed]
1 (or more) non-killjoy friend(s)+ 1 pair of bunny ears from Toy Kingdom each
+ hundreds of pairs of ogling eyes
+ 1 (or more) uncrowded mall(s)
+ window shopping
= PURE UNADULTERATED FUN.
Nyihihi.
I was having a really good hair day awhile ago. Which doesn't happen much. [To be more accurate, I have a good hair day around once every three months.] So ang saya ko. Feeling ko ang ganda-ganda ko. *flips hair* Kahit na ang init-init, hala, lugay pa rin. It was one of those days when you wish yout crushes [or in my case, just crush] would somehow materialize in front of you [and of course they never do].
And then...
It rained. No umbrella in sight, my only protection a cloth jacket, I attempted to protect my perfect hair, all to no avail. Nagmukha akong basa na sisiw. I love getting wet in the rain, don't get me wrong, but my hair! My haaaair!!!
Anyway, me and Ann were going to check out that new mall that opened across SM North, Trinoma, but because of the rain, Trinoma's power switched off, at dahil bulok sila, di pa ayos ang generator, so the whole place was in total darkness. Imagine how pissed off the people watching movies were.
So we went to SM and watched Shrek 3, which was cute, even though I liked the second one better. Then we went to Toy Kingdom, squealed over the Barbie dolls [etc] and saw the bunny ears, decided to wear them just for laughs [I wanted cat ears but couldn't find any]. We weren't trying to attract any attention, actually, I just thought they were adorable, didn't really think that people would find them that weird, but it turns out that they did. I guess that's how it works - deviate just a little from the norm and you're suddenly a public spectacle.
We made people stop at their tracks. Strangers let go of their pretensions and smiled at us as if they knew us. Kids pointed. And, HECK YEAH, it was fun. Not humiliating at all, kasi cute naman kami. Harharhar.Tried on a cute dress, put on some tester makeup, attempted to venture into the arcade pero andaming jologs kaya wag nalang...
Basta, fun.
Life is too important to take seriously. So true.
Labels: bangagation, day2day
Sunday, May 20, 2007
I call this post: Bleerrrrghhh [BGmusic: Enchantment by Corinne Bailey Rae]Because I'm so bored, I've been catching up on my webcomics. At the moment I'm reading Questionable Content.
Eerily familiar situation. That Steve is such an idiot.
I have come to realize that other girls like Prince Foamday as well. Which is expected because he's pretty cute [not gorgeous, but cute] - it'd be something else if no-one was already eying him.
I suddenly feel like a contestant on The Bachelor. :-| Daaaang.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
I call this post: It's been a while since I've stayed at here on a weekend. I've forgotten how boring it is. I miss camping class. [sigh] Anyway, the good thing about dorming is that someone always has a DVD available for my viewing pleasure. Right now I'm in the middle of Hana Yori Dango, which isn't usually the kind of thing I watch but like I said, I'm bored. It's a fun show. Ooh, and I watched The Breakup for the first time last night. I suddenly have a thing for Vince Vaughn, which is weird, but understandable, because he reminds me of - someone [yak].
Summer's ending. I have nothing else to do now that I've finished the first draft for my CW110 class. My turn for workshop isn't until Tuesday, so until then I won't be doing much revising.
Anyway, something to talk about...
Oh yes, I think I talked about this already, but starting this June, my whole family will be based in Quezon City. My dad just retired/quit from the AFP; he's going to be facilitating a new program in ISOT [International School of Theology] now. So it's bye-bye Baguio, goodbye to Q1031 - the house I spent the majority of my life in, hello heat and smog for us. I hope I won't cry too much. When I get home next week [?] I'm not going to be doing a lot of stuff other than sorting out which of my things I want to keep and which I want to throw away. It's going to be really hard for me because I keep a lot of junk around just because of sentimental value. [For example, I have a bowl of pebbles I can't bring myself to throw away because of what they mean, even though I keep them under my bed because I can't bear looking at them.] And there's 19 years of junk in my room. [Sigh.]
I've always thought about what it would be like if I was deeply rooted in a place. I mean, I've moved enough times to be alienated from people my life once revolved around. I've gone to six schools before UP, and I've always been "the girl who moved to _____". It's happening again, so it looks like I'll always be that girl. Sometimes I can't help but feel jealous towards those people who have stayed in the same house since forever, or those people who have gone to the same school since kindergarten - those guys have roots. They have childhood friends they still talk to, they don't feel all awkward around their grade school classmates. My only constants are my family and God. I'm not saying they're not sufficient, it's just that - it's sad.
And the streets of Metro Manila have too many names for me. But I'll get used to that. Eventually. I know.
Hay buhay.
[PAHABOL]
To those who have asking about what happened to Prince Foamday [yes, that will be what I'll be calling him from now on]: To summarize, he doesn't see me. I won't go as far as to saying that he doesn't know I exist, but he doesn't see me. Anyway, I'm sure there will be many more posts about Prince Foamday. Abangan.
[/PAHABOL]
Labels: boredom, rah-rah-rant, random, warning: sentiments ahead
Friday, May 18, 2007
I call this post: Three. It's magic! [BGmusic: basketball bouncing on the court outside window][SHARING LANG]
- The world may be coming to an end. Opened my friendster account, and guess who invited me as a contact? Guess who? MY MOTHER. Freaking heck, may friendster ang nanay ko. And that's not the end of it - may friendster din ang tatay ko, hindi lang marunong mag-invite. Kumusta naman yan. Feeling ko they're going to use it to spy on me. Hala. :-|
- Remember my wish that camping class would never end? You probably don't because I didn't blog it. Haha. Anyway, it looks like I'll be joining UP Campers. Hehe. I love camping. Hindi na babalik ang natural na kulay ko. Yes.
Foamday [see previous post] has come and gone.
And I'm still here.
Why?!?!
[Duh, hindi ka mermaid, you dweeb.]
To take my mind off of all this stupid mermaid business... I got tagged by Sheen, a friend from my camping class. Let's do this.
Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you. People who get tagged need to write a blog post of their own with 6 weird things, as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.
- When I'm really happy, I tend to bob my head a lot or sway from side to side with a really goofy smile on my face. Kahit na wala akong kasama. So ang weird talaga ng itsura. This happens a lot when I'm eating good food, kakakita lang ng crush, or kung maganda lang gising ko.
- I have three coloring books and some crayons that I bring out whenever I feel down and I need something to do.
- I'm allergic to so many things, things you'd think nobody would even be allergic to [e.g. lettuce, anyone?] to the usual [e.g. shrimps]. Most of the time I just ignore my allergies and eat the allergens... in moderation naman. [Trivia: Favorite vegetable ko pa tomato, tapos allergic ako sa tomatoes. Haha musta naman.]
- My mother fell down a flight of stairs while she was pregnant with me [hindi ako sure kung 5 months or 7 months]. That's why I'm like this. :-|
- I have a trademark dance step that I have shown to only a select few: The Chicken Dance. It rocks.
- The best part of the movie-going experience for me is watching the trailers. Warning to those who plan on watching a movie with me and have not ever watched a movie with me before: I tend to squeal a lot during the trailers. It happens when I get excited. Pabigyan na ninyo, kasi tahimik talaga ako sa feature presentation.
Something really weird happened to me yesterday. I was being all emo and stupid, because of Foamday, and there was no-one at the dorm to talk to. [Only two of my friends stayed in Ilang-ilang this summer.] So I decided to take a walk alone, because I didn't want to go in my room and feel miserable about everything. [I wanted to go out to Sunken Garden and feel miserable about everything there - ha ha.]
Then when I was walking by the Law Building to get to Sunken, this man asks for the time. I'd place his age somewhere in his late thirties or early forties. Basta. Yun. So I gave him my time and turned around to leave, but then he started to make some small talk. So, being the polite person that I am, I turned around and humored him. Basta, tinanong niya yung course ko, tapos sabi ko Economics kasi yun naman talaga ang course ko, tapos ininsulto pa niya ako kasi sabi niya pang-lalake daw yung Econ. Muntik nang lumabas ang psycho-feminist personality ko nun. Anyway, he went on about how boring the review class for the bar exam was, etc etc...
AND THEN HE ASKS FOR MY NUMBER.
Ito reaction ko: "Ha?"
Reaction niya sa reaction ko: *labas cellphone* "Ok, ano na?"
Reaction ko sa reaction niya sa reaction ko: "Ha?"
Reaction niya sa reaction ko sa reaction niya sa reaction ko: *hawak pa rin cell phone, expectant look on face*
Reaction ko sa reaction niya sa reaction ko- hay wag na nga: "Kasi po... kasi po... may boyfriend ako... baka magagalit..." [Yes, big BIG lie, but it was in self-preservation.]
Reaction niya sa reaction ko sa- ay basta: "Kahit na, kung gusto mo talagang ibigay ang number mo... ibigay mo na..."
Reaction ko sa blah blah blah: "Er. Sige." [This is where I really lose the plot. I don't know how I got from point A to B pero ayan. I just wanted to get away from this psycho.]
I rattled off my numbers. While I was doing it I was staring at the sky, praying for some kind of superhero to just whisk me away before I got to my last digit. The superhero did not come. Figures. The stupid thing is, ang binigay ko na number sa kaniya ang totoong number ko. I could have given him my dad's number instead [para mamatay na siya - haha - just kidding - or am I?], I could have given him a number I made up, pero ayan. Nakuha ng isang DOM ang cell phone number ko. [And my Prince didn't even bother to ask. T_T]
After that, I started walking to Sunken again. Naaasar talaga ako kasi nagmomoment nga ako tapos naharass pa ako ng isang DOM. Pangit pa kotse niya. Kung Benz yun or something, baka patulan ko pa [yes, I am kidding].
Then for no reason whatsoever I just started laughing. Kasi kahit na medyo nakakatakot, funny talaga. There I was, feeling like hell already, and this stupid man just made it worse - stuff like that makes me feel like I'm really alive, and reassures me that I'm not crazy, I'm not imagining all of this... churva, kasi I cannot dream up a DOM like that in a million years.
Yun lang. Kwinento ko lang ang attempt ko to have a drama moment yesterday afternoon. I ended up in the CCC tambayan, nagkwentuhan nalang kami ng isang kuya ko dun.
Hindi pa siya nagttext. I totally forgot his name. Actually, "forgot" is not the right word because I didn't make an attempt to remember his name in the first place. Basta. Girls, beware of the crossroads between Stat and Law. May tumatambay dun feeler.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
I call this post: Foamday [BGmusic: wala. electric fans]So it looks like I'm coming out of my hiatus. I finished the first draft of my ten-page story [phew!] already so now I have time to update. Wow. It's amazing really, kaya ko pala ang two months without blogging. Namiss ba ninyo ako? [Kung hindi, don't bother answering that. I heyt yu.]
What have I been up to?
- Summer classes. They're ending, and it's so sad, for many many reasons. Sana forever nalang camping at CW110 lang yung mga classes ko. Especially camping. Man, that was fun.
- Watched tons and tons of DVDs. Mahal ko na ang Desperate Housewives. Haha.
- Before that, I went to Davao. Masaya.
- Oh, and nagka-drama queen moments din ako. Maraming nangyari sa buhay ko. Pero let's forget about that.
Anyway, drama mode ako ngayon, as you can see from the last two posts. Hindi ko na sasabihin yung reason kasi (1) CORNY SIYA AS IN, at (2) super private talaga siya.
To give you a vague idea of what I'm going through, I feel like the Little Mermaid right now. Right before she turns into foam, when she knows she's going to lose her prince and she can do nothing about it. I'm obviously not talking about Ariel, but the Hans Christian Anderson one. For those of you who haven't read it [and you should, because it's great], it goes a lot like the Disney version:
- Little Mermaid falls in love with Prince.
- Little Mermaid saves Prince's life. Prince hears her voice, falls in love din ata.
- Little Mermaid gets herself some legs from the village witch, in exchange for her voice.
- If she doesn't get the Prince to love her in x days [I forgot how many], she's going to die and turn into foam, because mermaids don't have souls, they just turn into seafoam when they die.
- Every step for the Little Mermaid+LEGS is torture [as in masakit talaga], but when she is with her Prince, it's all worth it.
- The Prince and the Little Mermaid+LEGS become friends, but because of the Little Mermaid+LEGS's voice, or lack thereof, the Prince does not realize that this girl is the one he has been looking for.
- The Prince marries some other girl.
- The Little Mermaid+LEGS's mother gives her a dagger to drive into the Prince 's heart. If she kills the Prince, she can get her tail back and change back into a mermaid.
- She goes to the Prince's bedroom, sees the Prince and the girl he chose [huhu], but doesn't kill him, kasi duh she loves him.
- Little Mermaid+LEGS goes to the sea, and when the sun rises, she melts into foam because her time is up.
So it looks like foamday's coming up for me.
Mabuhay.
Labels: day2day, guys, warning: sentiments ahead
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Just kill me now.Boohoo. Boohoo.
I'm this close to pulling a Meredith. ["Choose me. Pick me. Love me." - Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.]
Man, I suck.
[You don't have to mind me. I just need to tell the world that I'm miserable. I'm so sorry for degenerating into the pathetic mess that I am right now. Hindi ko talaga sinasadya.]
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
I deleted the post I made yesterday about a certain someone because I felt I was baring too much of my soul than what's healthy. >.<
I've been searching for youI heard a cry within my soul
I've never had a yearning quite like this before
Know that you are walking right through my door
All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
A sacred gift of heaven
For better worse, wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down
Until you cried, never
All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
At every time I've always known
That you where there, upon your throne
A lonely queen without her king
I longed for you, my love forever
All of my life
Where have you been
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
Boohoo. Boohoo.