delusional [?]
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sounds of the summer
"I don't need the sunshine
Don't need the good times,
Don't need anything anyone's giving,
And I don't mind your lies so keep on talking." - Don't Need the Sunshine, Catatonia
donya quixote
- Proud to be Pinay.
- Born once upon a time in the late January 1988.
- Hails from the highlands; Baguio City.
- She dorms.
- Getting
hazedtrained for life at the School of Economics at the University of the Philippines, Diliman. - Member of the UP Campus Crusade for Christ and UP Economics Society.
- Just a little bit crazy.
- Doesn't want to kiss frogs; faithful to her Dulcine[o]. [NBSB PRIDE!]
- Extremely socially inept - uncomfortable with the idea of meeting new people. Would rather curl up with a nice book than go out clubbing.
- Loyal to the friends she already has. Cause they're great. [Most of the time. Hehe.] ;)
- Usually highly opinionated when it comes to music/film/other media, but her lack of social awareness is disgusting.
- A fool for Jesus Christ.
- Here's her multiply, friendster, and email. [Has myspace, but it's as good as dead. Still contemplating on whether or not she should resurrect it.]
reader log
the past
Symphony in the Key of C-minor
Tikim ng Kalayaan
The Aftertaste v1.0
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I call this post: On change [BGmusic: Another Little Hole]
Erratic thought #1:
Ooh!
Wow, I'm posting today even though I already posted yesterday. It's been a while since my last consecutive posts.
Erratic thought #2:
I have changed.
A lot. I was browsing through my old blogs yesterday, and besides that sad I-wish-I-could-go-back-to-that-time feeling, the I-wish-I-didn't-do-that thoughts, and the wow-I-am-funny-after-all realizations, was the awareness that I have changed in ways I thought I never would.
Want some elaboration? [For my posts in my Kalayaan blog, you have to click on the "read the blog" button"][5.7.05] Here's me annoyed at my parents for the rules they set up for me [i.e. no boyfriends until you're 43, only group dates, blah blah blah]. And [4.23.05] here's me contradicting myself. I was a very confused girl. I'm [not so] confused anymore, so don't worry [too much] about me.I'm [a little] more grown up now. I still eat like a kid. I haven't gotten rid of the little mannerisms that everyone's been pestering me to grow out of [e.g. wiping my nose with my hand, for starters]. I will always be a little isip-bata, and I don't want to change that.
[7.16.05] Here's some more confusion. [Warning: this post does not sound like me at all, because this was during my - what's the word... ah yes - emo phase.]
Aha! [9.29.05] This was... hehehe... if you get it, laugh/sigh/cry with me. If you don't get it, just pretend you do, and laugh/sigh/cry with me anyway.
Erratic thought #3:
People change. Every day. Change like you. I've got all the time in the world. [Kanta!]
Yeah, people change. It's kind of funny, because before I was about to graduate from high school, people started telling me that I should never ever change. You may say that they liked me just the way I was [pfft!], which is great, but to not change is a difficult, if not impossible, thing to do when there are so many... externalities [uy, econ!] to take in.We grow. That's the magical ceremony that occurs when you give humans enough water and sunshine.
And with that growth, comes the growth that occurs in our relationships. Sometimes, we grow apart. Sometimes, we grow even closer to each other. Sometimes, we think we are growing apart only to find that the distance has only made our bond even stronger. [Am I making any sense here?]
I know that friends come and go. The friends I have right now may not be the same friends I have ten years from now. It's sad, but this knowledge has made me value the friendships that I still do have.
Erratic Thought #4:
This is for the Tribe.
I don't expect that many of you will read this [because hardly any of you ever drop by here - hmph *tampo*], but I just want you to know that I will always remember the way we were. Yes, I have changed. Yes, I know that you all have as well. But I will always know you as my high school friends, that group of obnoxious actors, writers, painters and photographers who dominated the front gardens during lunch time and paraded around the school like we were the kings and queens of the place. [Everyone hated us back then, remember? Now we've befriended our rivals, which is pretty funny.]
Back then we thought it would never end. And now, look at us. Maybe you don't agree with some of the decisions I've made the last couple of years, and maybe I don't agree with some of yours. But really, does it even matter? We're scattered all over the place, and our friendship isn't the same anymore.
But it's still there.
And I'm good with that.
Thank you for helping me re-learn Tagalog [I'm still working on my grammar - haha]. Thank you for showing me the wonders of street food. Thank you for helping me abandon of my pretentions and my elitista tendencies. Thank you for making me proud of the undeniable fact that God made me a little crazy. Thank you for showing me that going to a public school isn't so bad after all.
In the words of ee cummings,
i carry your heart with me (i carry it inI love you guys. [Ick! Too - sappy - must - escape.]
my heart)
Happy Anniversary, mga Katribo.
Labels: thinking: a dangerous past-time, warning: sentiments ahead